Need Or Needn't ?

Yeahhh , Need or Needn't ? i d k . Okay , i used to say to Atus that i'm such a lone after all . I lost all my scandals and lead me to the so empty living . Its hard when i don't get any loving touches from man , looks desperate , seriously . Days after days i started to okay with that . I felt relieve without them , hm yeah for little . I do lying if i don't stalked them , yes i'd stalked them . I'm bloody cares to whom doesn't even care about me , that's so not good . Some of the times , i began to feel so liking , but somehow i felt they're just trouble . I'd want to payback all the bad things they did to me but there's no ways as we had lost our connection and egoistically i don't want have any more relation with them but i want so , completely complicated . Its hard to have any of more love connections with some other guy , i know that i need to try it first . May be there's a luck for me ? pray for it then .

Here comes the new man named as S , haha im not ready to mention his real name . Just a few hours ago , he said that he likes me , really ? i began to laugh , repeating , 'NO WAY !'

to be kind and honest , i dont want to hurt his feeling , but somehow i don't know what to do and accurately what should i do ? Should i try him first ? Or just ignore about it . because i don't have any feeling towards him 'now' , soon idk what will appear in my heart , yeah really . however it is , he's quite best for me .

To be truth , im searching for permanent bf , and i'm not sure about it , back to the title peeps , 'Need Or Needn't ?' Yeahhh , i couldn't make any decision right now , i need some times , of course i tell yaa when i get the answer , just wait and see .

Ohhhh , I'm Chuckles Afterwards

Woken on 10 a.m though still sleepy -.- i felt little wet , haha no way im piss (!) im your big girl , it just my period came to , my waist is completely pain , only God knows how bad it is . I cant standing much , just sit sit and sit . alright then , i took a bath and ran to get my computer , ahaa :D ! log in my myspace , and came to write my lovely blog :) so happy ! and the pain decreases , whoot whoot ! haha

i gotta comment from S , haha :P he said that he missed me , really ? hm , smile is the only way i can do :) yeah . then , i went to look at his profile , and saw something , idk which its make me happy or what . ohh come onnnn , dont you say that he loves me . we just known each other in a short time , exactly . honestly what , i still scare to have any relation with any guys out there . all my old bfs such a jerk , oh not all , some of them and majority -.- however , i cant be selfish , i must think positive at time , he might be a nice person , idk i dont have any right to judge him . so i'm gonna treat him as nice as i can , perhaps .

hey , know what , today Abah wants to take us to Sg . Congkak . Sorry to say , im sick being there as we have been there for many times as well . so i decide to stay home :) well , home sweet home . really (:

I'm Mad , Especially Without Her

See ? that's me and nabb , yeah , the very bestfriend of mine . We've been through many things together , only God knows everything .

Back to past Monday when i woke up in the morning to had a school and intentionally wanna met her . Normally , i'll check out any text or miscalled from anyone and i got nabb's text . I read it , and burst to tears then . You know , in the bathroom , i was blubbering so hard as my eyes were red and sore and my voice , i d k how to describe , but yeahh , you could imagine that ! I was so silent when i met my friends at school , exactly not me as always as before . They all know what had happened as Nabb sent to all her texts , and yeah , they felt the same thing with me , i am more , i guess .

I was completely pissed off . She gone with inappropriate time , i wasn't met her for a long time , and she just gone like that , leave me a text of course , hell ! its not the proper way to say goodbye , isn't it ? She said , 'kau cari lah pengganti lain , but make sure i'm your number one ' . I couldn't imagine my days without her by my side . Anddddd my next table is empty now , the loneliness emerged finally .

awwwwwwwwwwh , i am dumbfounded when i saw him , again

OMG ! OMG ! and OHHH-EMM-GEEEEE :(

put my both hands on my face -.- and shaking badly ! i felt so shock ! alrightttttttt , breath in , fuhhhhhhh , huhhh .

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! errrr , why this must happened to me ? i still want him . yeah , i knew that i mustn't act like this , but ohhhhhh :( *shrugging !

ohhh-kay ! i take a looked at h's profile and i saw r's photo . and i was like 'wowwwwwh' ! why ? I've been like that because of the completely amazed of him . You know , i do really missed him , a lot then . Ohhh , Atus got mad when i told her , 'i miss him wehh!' She was 'nana ! fikir baik baik , he's not worth at all ' . ohh , OK then , i'll discard those feeling , -.- but i can't . ohhhh ! this is really mad , can't get enough about him for ages . Yeahh , he's completely trouble-maker , errr...what was i saying ?

when i'm talking :D

Yoooooo :D haha

Hell yahh , this is an inappropriate time to write a blog . But , only now i shoot the mood to do this . Those who aren't comfort with what im gonna write about , i tell you ahh , no need to look even read :) thank you ! And those who thinks this is the best blog ever , then keep linking on here , im gonna feel so delightful , trust me yeah , once again , thanks :)