HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR 2011

A Routine.

''Ya Allahh, tidur lagiiii? Dah pukul berapa niiii, it's 2.30 pm already. Heyyyy!" I was like shocked. What the hell is mama doing here? She suppose to be in her office now instead yelling out at this very freaking morning, err yeah it's still an early morning now, ah-huh 2.30pm, yeahh --' oh Goddd. Suddenly, ''mama ni kacau jelah kitorang tengah tidur sedap taw'' Irfan was like whiney and again he said "kitorang biasa bangun lambat tau, ni awal lagi baru pukul dua setengahh. Apalah mama niiii" Yes, great! Irfan is just 7 years-old and he always speak like an adult. Sometimes, literally i was like "Enough Irfan! You talked so much, can you please be silent just for even a moment --' And pleaseeee, you're just a little boy and be like a little boy, not a-so-busybody-person like you're old enough -__________- buh buh!" Yes, he is a very talkative little boy and sometimes he speak something that's make us feel like wanna kill him! But for this moment, he's so helpful. And i'm glad to see him next to me :) I hugged him and was like "yeah mama, lagi pun nak buat apa bangun awal, bukannya buat apa punnn" Mama was just wrapped us with blanket and "there's some foods Aunty Nor bought for you, you can eat it when you wake up" We're both on the bed was just remain silent and sleep again.

Well fyi, i really cannot sleep till it was 8am. I can't! And it's so disturbing me. I felt regret for being sleep when it was 5pm till 10pm -_________-' i should not sleep on that time or it turned out to be like this. Woahhhhhhhh *i'm yawninggg! :'O

Okay, last night i was asked mama's permission to go on this Sunday :) And at first mama was like "Ah, no no no!" But i kept begging and she was like "Gimme some times to think about it" And i was like "okayyyy :) thanks mama" Wo, there's must be a lot of works must be doneee, you know, being nice and a mithali daughter for 2 days in achieving this so wanted thingy :) eh, i want to back to sleep haha, bayeeeeee :)

A Wish

PLEASE ? I REALLY WANT TO GO THIS SUNDAY :'|

Random Awesome :) Awwww

it all began

at the show one weekend

i was a friend of your cousin said

"hey how you've been"

And with your checkered shirt on

And my Reebok shoes on

Let's watch something random

turned to something awesome

And I smile I love no,

I laugh happier somehow

No I don't know what is up with me

I laugh too much recently

No, They don't know much about us

When we're exchanging glances

We'll figure out one day,

what happened on your 24th birthday

It all began with a simple confession

You had an urge to kiss me and

I was on the verge to miss you

and it happen,

no we don't understand

no i won't even budge

before we didn't hang out much

So save me in your playlist

so, You wont forget this

And if this dont quite go your way

You'll still have me on replay

With your checkered shirt on

And my Reebok shoes on

Let's watch something random

turned to something awesome

And I smile I love no,

I laugh happier somehow

No I don't know what is up with me

I laugh too much recently

No, They don't know much about us

When we're exchanging glances

We'll figure out one day,

what happened on your 24th birthday

Haishh

I really wish for something like this, finally.

Life Is So Not Fair

hello pals :) it's been too long since i update my last post, i d k, i don't have the mood to update any post here but now i do. Well at this very moment, i'm listening to all Yuna's songs :) Its makes me sooth anyway and i just feel peace when i'm listening to her songs.

Nowadays i'm in such a dull and bored --' well i don't realize it before but i did now when someone told me how pathetic i am. I don't like him either since he such as boasts and condemner. But he said what's right and it is the fact that yeah, i'm a pathetic.

I have no life here, yesterday i woke up at 4pm when only my little brother woke me up vigorously. Went downstairs and fried some chicken wings Ayamas and had my so-late-breakfast with my little brother. Took a bath and minutes after mama's home, woahhhhh i never thought that it had been so fast. I was just finished with my bath when mama came upstairs, and it's like ''WO o.O'' I would like to say ''what a dayyyyyyyh --'''

2010 got the most worst Final School Break ever! I tell you what, I have no chilling out with my friends even once at this very holiday. I stayed at home taking care of my brothers. Online like 24/7. I have to do chores everyday. Sleep too much late and you know how i woke up everyday. I don't step out to the exit door of my home, i don't see the sunlight seriously, it's night for me everyday. I fought with my mom. I cried myself when i'm alone and if i got the chance because of how pathetic i am. I'm totally rare watching tv since my brothers conquer to play their playstation game and it shame when someone ask me about this very famous movie and i have no idea about that at all. I studied for my incoming SPM too much little. Boyfriends came and gone, like on and off, sometimes they're eagerly around me, but sometimes they're just disappeared, why don't they keep constant :( ? I dream so much everyday to be with this and that, but i will get nothing. I phoned many friends of mine, but it was really few whom picked me up since the cell phone number is a stranger to them because i used mama's phone. I drinks too little till my lips flake and droughty. I like this guy but seemed it's could not works between us. I've been a single person for 3 months and it could be more longer. I'm putting on weight since i didn't do even a little of exercises. The vacation was totally not as hilarious as i wished. Someone make me to take care of their little and naughty kids for three days like i'm a babysitter and only God knows how much i hate it. And just now, someone got angry because of unexplained fault of mine, i mean, i didn't do any wrongs but i was just explained him the real condition of us and he was suddenly like ''whatever'' :(

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :( ? But no matter what, i'm not pleased to back to school on 2011. No matter how pathetic i am at this home, i prefer here more than my current school. School pictures me how awful and terrible it will be, with no friends around, get tense with study and SPM, and surround by weirdos. School is sucks ay --' ?

Please 2011, please :'| ? PLEASE BE NICE TO ME, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

Pals, i don't have anymore to say about, i should have my bed now till late evening -.- Bayyeee and thanks for reading this very heck thingy i got in my school break.

You're Not That Obvious Enough To Be Noticed

Just now i wrote something on my fb profile like ''MY BLOG IS SO ATTRACTIVE, COME AND VISIT IT, THE LINK SHOWN ON INFORMATION DOWN HERE.'' OH WATTAHECK ! Yeah i knowwww, kinda desperate and shittttt -.- but no pals,  i'm not, i was just trying to attract people to read my blog but i just don't know how. I'm trying to make the blog link of mine to be obviously to be seen by people, and repeat, i just don't know howwwww :|

I'm effing boring now and i did that shit and fucka thingy on fb or wherever. I was changing google chrome themes about zillion times just to get rid the boredom --' However, i got the fav one, and i wonder why i'd never seen this theme before -.- And suppose not to change anymore of it i guess, but i might if there's any other new themes created and even cool-er than current i use right now :)

Hm palssss ;D lemme end it here, i know, it's like hanging, but i suppose to done now as ideas is lacking, haha that's the actual reason. So, okay, bye :)

Flyyyyyyy, Up Up Here We Go! Up Up Here We Go!

Today i was attending two events and these events are made by mama's fellas :) Well, bluntly that i'm tired, but still i'm happy.

The first event, was like a kenduri thingy as their little son had khatan/sunat already and he's only 6 years old dude -.- yeah i know, he's too pretty little boy with a sharp stuff harm his ''e'em e'em'' it's eerie me --' While we're having foods at their house, this little boy came out and shown himself. As you know, he just had the khatan/sunat and so he was like, you know, wore kain pelikat and pinching on that spot, yess, that spot :P It was startling us when he suddenly ran and ran, we was like ''Ya Allahhhhh, tak sakit ke --' ?'' Afterall, we decided to go home just for a time being, we need to change our attire as baju kurung that we wore for kenduri khatan wasn't suitable for that birthday party, ooh yes, birthday party was the second event :)

And also, this party was made for mama's friend's little daughter, she's five i guess. I chose black color dress and also black color clutch with black color high heels :D haha yeah, from a head to toes :) We was lucky bcs approximately we reached there and the party was about to begin with the happy birthday singing for that little pretty girl :) Also they provided clown to make the party to be more interesting and also many interesting games for kids provided . My little brother Irfan won the first game and he was so happy. And i hehe, i joined the karaoke and i won for the first prizes, too :P The competitors was actually can't sing and so i ain't that proud to be the winner. I saw this guy, he's not bad, but i didn't have the courageous to look at him, but i did a little glanced on him <3 Awwww haha, i bet it would be much more fun if Bella also being there, we're a pretty flirty girls and i couldn't be flirty without her around, like seriously. I miss you Nabila Jauhari :)

Woahhhh, i'm so tired now, i wanna have some rest :) byeee pals <3

Baby I Know , Imma Superstar .

Ahahah , Ariff was so funny :) It was the first time i saw him so much pissed off of me . I laugh my heart out , i really was . He was like ''sakit jiwaaaaa'' ahahahah :D Pity pityyyyy , i just can't help you Ariff , you're so my laughing gas .

But before Ariff , there's Bella Latif who was with all of a sudden seek me for the forgiveness , OMG it was really startling me . Idk , the way she asked for it as if she'd done a big crime to me and probably i'd never realized it . She was so serious and i was like ''Oh Goshhh , is that because she'd ever stab me on the back ? If that is , what is it !'' OHHH SHE BUZZ ME , again , at this very moment ! I SWEAR ! and and and , again she asked me ''forgive me not ?'' and i was like ''maaf maaf'' Back to my words , is that because she'd ever stab me on the back ? Woooshhhhh , i hope she did not . It's never through my mind and SHE DIDN'T :) she didn't she didn't she didn't ! Bella bellaaaa , why so serious ?

Okay now , this is Ariff's segment . HAHA , well at first , he was greet me on IM fb like ''belanja aku makan'' and then our conversation began to be really interesting when he said like ''you'd never treat me with anything , even once , what a friend you are'' watta heck during the past eid , i gave him RM5 for his duit raya --' how dare he said that i'd never treat him ? I was feel like wanna smack on his face , yes dude yes , i wanna smack on your face , biar penyek terus haha . Yeah i know , i'm such a bob up and down . But i don't care , i just proved it that he was wrong :) I'M A GOOD FRIEND , aite Ariff aite :) ? haha and then we kept fighting for each other but at the end , he raise up the white flag ;) which was mean , I WON baby i won :D haha and i was like ''AKU HEBATTTT'' hahahaha i know i'm so proud :P But come on , chill dude , it was just for fun and still we're friends :)

gosh , my eyes are so heavyyyyyy , i suppose i done now , bayeeee see ya later

SPEAK IT LOUD

AAAAARRRRGHHHHH ! WHAT A NUISANCE --' ! FUCKOFF !

And Probably He Knows How To Make Me Fell In Love With Him .

Oh crapppppp --' ! I miss him so much , badly :'( I have no idea with what i feel right now , i just , i just missing him so much . You know what , i felt so much happy and great when i can talk to him , and like can not stop . He knows how to make me comfort , he knows how to make me smile , he knows how to make me laugh , he knows how to kidding on me , he knows how to talk to me , he knows how to make me happy and probably he knows how to make me fell in love with him . No way , it's not that easy for me to fell in love , NO WAY ! Nooo :( But seems like , it is now . And all just because of him . My mind can't stop thinking about him , it's likeeeee i took it away and then suddenly it's came back and say Hello :) ! Ohh what a fucking heck ! Does he feel the same thing as i feel ? Does he ? Doeeeesssss he ? Well i really hope so . On 1st December , i got a lot missed calls from him on Skype , and unfortunately :( i was not there i was sleep , but my Skype was keep online as i didn't logged it out , Godddddd i felt so regret for not being there .  Because i really wanted to talk him , even after minutes we'd just talked though . Don't you see it ? How much i missed him .

I just knew him about for hours but felt like we've known each other for ages , i told him my story and he told me his story . It's like i can talk to him about anything , ohhhh he's so soothing and nice . You know , when he felt like he did something wrong to me , quickly he say ''eh sorry''. I know , this is just a small matter for you but it's not for me . It's kinda hard to find someone whom can say that sorry immediately just bcs a little things , i guess . Well , at first he added me on facebook and i was just confirmed him . He then was greet me on IM fb and we had a little chat . We then continued our conversation on Skype :) And afterall , we'd webbieeee :) and everything was just awesome and wonderful . But it's awful now bcs we didn't get the chance to be just like that again . But yesterday , he asked my pal if i'm online or not , and again :( i wasn't there . Whatttttt a sad ! And today , i'm waiting him here with a full of hope that he'll get online and so i can laugh with him just like that moment . But until now , i keep on counting 1 2 3 4 5... and he's not yet here . Ohhh i miss you so much .

Pals , i tell you what , he's the one that i can be myself with , i really can be just anything i want when i be with him . I said to him like ''wahhhhhhh :)  i really can be myself when i with you , i can tell you about everything . I feel sooooo comfort with you !'' and he was like ''lol , like it's the only me can make you feel just like that ?'' YES , IT'S THE ONLY YOU WHOM CAN MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THAT . Ohhhhh , i miss you so much .

I wish i can find him in a very soon , hopefully :'| ! I'm afraid to fell in love again but i want now and i hope it'll not hurting me . Again , I MISS YOU <3 and i'm waiting for you , i'm waiting .