Nothing's Perfect !

Of course , there's nothing's perfect -,-

Well , i'm down now i guess . Everything seems burden to me , the family , the friends , siblings and etc . I was so sick of being like this , it'll never come to an end , everything will repeat and repeat . I know i can't get run from it , but i need to take an action to make sure my life will flow nicely . Luckily there's someone helpfully behind me , my beloved mama :) well , our relation was healed and i'm grateful ! sooner or later , i'll gone to boarding school , it's the best way i guess .

be tough , be strong , be cool , be smart

Oh No Baby , It's Awful , naa-na-na-naaaa-na !

*giggles* tihihi ;D okay here , i wanna tell you guys something funny and ashamed i guess :P it's not me who ashamed , but he was ! my very ex-bf A acted peculiarly nowadays . I d k what's wrong with him ! You know what , he have a new gf , again . After me , P and now the bitch -.-' the so-called-gf-but-such-a-bitch of him was so nasty , trust me . Well , it's very none of my business but the way he behaved irritatingly on me makes me feel totally annoyed -,-

basically , yesterday we had some chats on myspace and he's the one who greeted me at first . so i just hello back and we talked about random or daily thingy that we had nowadays . also in the conversations , he asked me to topup my phone so we can texts and i was like ohh okay i will but it's not ohh okay i will actually , it's mean never ! for what i waste the money just because of him ? and here baby , the so-peculiar-thingy of the major issue had happened . today , he greeted me again , and the way he greeted could make me suspends yet and i was wondering much like what was the fault thingy had i done ? because he said 'dyana , i nak cakap sikit dengan you boleh ?' so i was like haa ? sure but why ? -,- a little afraid of me . Then he replied 'sorry to say this but i have to . i had fought with my gf because yesterday i asked you to topup your phone . She's really mad even i had explained that you're just my ex-gf . and still she's angry to me' so here , the very of my business becoming my business now -,- so please don't think that i'm the devil here . and so i replied 'so what's the point here ? it wasn't my fault at all -.- !' duhhhh , you see that ? the way he gave the statements like i was the jerk in between his relation , watta hell !

how can he defend that so-called-gf-but-such-a-bitch just because of my very nothing wrong had done to them ! and his so-called-gf-but-such-a-bitch was so bucolic as what the enormous title i gave to her , haha . i tell you what , the way she dress up will make your tongue like yuckkkksss and your mouth will pout just like a duck and your head will frowns million because it's really nasty , i swear to you :D ops ! haha . i still remember even it will never get out from my head , she wore a short pan with yellow colour and she had a pair of ugly legs , it's the most worst view i'd ever seen , trust me .

honestly , A is a really handsome man , urm cute actually , and it's surprised when he turned to that girl , exactly a big surprised for me .

Why Must Every Single Man On The Earth , Cannot Stop Doing Jerk ?

It's pathetic story i must tell yaa . The best friend of mine , Mira totally dumped by the jerk named Syafiq . They had been couple before with a long sorts of time , about 1 year i guess . Well actually , Syafiq wasn't that so charming punn --' but still Mira teared because of him . And i was like fucking hate to see her tears just because . Today Mira teared hardly as her eyes turn to red and puffy just like that picture , really . Mira told me that Syafiq had propose her again after the major break happened . She tend to accept it as she still loves him . But then , the things changed in all of a sudden to be fucking worse and you know whatt , FUCK OFF you Syafiq ! you jerk doesn't deserve to have any girlfriend in this world , i wish you'll get ultimate bad relation with another girls out there , forever ! see ? i'm cursing now , i hate that jerk or any of those jerks out there . oh yeah , the reason of why i'm so pissed off is because after the proposal and all of a sudden , syafiq turn out and said 'Mira lupakan lamaran syafiq hari tu , takpayah sedih sedih , mira boleh happy dengan kawan kawan' , that's what Mira have told me . And waaatttttttta heck you jerk ! because mostly would makes me pissed is , on the propose time , syafiq also said 'Miraa , kita couple balik ? Syafiq janji Syafiq boleh jaga mira , walau apa pun yang terjadi , kita kena pertahankan hubungan kita , biarlah orang nak buat apa pun , kita kena kuat' WHAT A SWEET TALKER HE IS ! and easily turned out like mira wasn't has feeling at all , like she is a doll -.- and miraaaaa ? she's cried a lot ! and i hug her , tried to sooth her nerves . She said that she missed him so much , ohhhh why she so pathetic :( i barely cry when i see her like that , really .

and to the very jerk out there ,

back off from me !

i'm fucking hatred with all of you

Lives Like Normal Life

So today . Woke up quiet late and rushed me out to go to school . As a result , i reached school also late but luckily still i had my breakfast eventhough the bell rang already as i'd begged 'makcik kantin' to give me some food and told her to not to tell the heck prefect or i'll caught by them --' so then , i had my way to my friends and sat along with them at the assembly . It's Atus whom the first one i looking for and i'd greet her happily also asked her apologize because on the past Thursday i didn't pick her so many calls , i was like 'Atussss , sorry doe hari tu . My phone was in the car and i'm fishing on that time . And i bet you know that my phone will always out of credit so i couldn't call you back , i'm so soryyyyyyyyy' and she was like angry and decided to silent at me , well i d k what's the exactly thingy that made her silent and i'm not sure if she's angry or not . Cause she still wait for me to walk together to our class , and it makes me doubt about her angrier .

At the class , i've greeted by Jan Jin cheerly ! He was like hayyyyyy and grinning . Its lifted up my mood , thanks JJ :D and more of it , i wasn't alone at my table anymore ! *applaused . guess what , Ariff the guy from Kelantan and still has the piece of Kelantan's sounds haha , he sat with me . Obviously now , he took over Nabb's place and welcome :D ! Buttttt , at first lah kan , i felt lil awkward as i d k how to talk to him or having conversations either having some chats , i just like :) haha . Till minutes later only we've started talking talking (: We've talked about many issues and wowhh ! haha i began to be talkative with him , oh yes i am . Anyway , he is a nice kid ! We had learn so much things today as we've also discussed about subjects and we drag teacher to come to our place to teach us anything we doubted on . it's kinda cool thingy i'd did today , learning curiously i must say . i'd asked teacher so much questions and teacher was tried her best of the best to make me understand in the subject .

I tell you aaa , BM's teacher did gave us a long lectures and trust me , its make me dizzy , like soooooooooo damn dizzy --' i felt like my nose tend to run out but luckily there's nothing happened with it but still it's pain . Pn NorYamsina was so angry because of our bad performance in BM , she said that we're level just like the stupid class , she was like 'hello , you all budak kelas science yang pandai pandai belaka , soo jadilah macam orang pandai macam budak kelas science . Kalau budak kelas MPV or 4P5 dapat marakah mcam ni , saya takkan marah mereka sebab mereka dah tahap macam tu je , tapi kamu ni apa nak jadi ?' and everybody kept in silent and some of them was in sleeping time , but not me :P

And yeahhh , some issues happened with my friend , look up .

Momma , That's So Weird !

Okay , i woke up at 12 pm today only when mama yelled from downstairs like 'nanaaaaa ! bangunlahhhh ! it's 12 alreadyyyyy!' . I still on my bed now if mama won't do that , so thank you mama . But still i'm sleepy as my eyes hard to open , yawned much .

Serve you right , slept at 6 am , do it again --' ! So i went downstairs and shown my face to mama , ensure her that her daughter awoke already and stop her from yelling . Got my towel , gone to bathroom then . I can see my face shining cause of dirty oils came out from my face and so i scrub it roughly , make it free from oils . Mama was in the kitchen preparing our lunch meal , see ? It's lunch time already , and i late for my breakfast , nevermind then . After all , i went up to online and surfing , godd i can't get enough for online , i was like 24/7 filled in with online online online , kinda addictive , well i think i am . Minutes after , i decided to have my lunch as the food served already and it's delicious for me , sambal belacan and ulam (: yes , i ate that , you think it nasty ? like i bloody care ! While i'm eating my lunch , mama still in the kitchen and suddenly...

mama : nanaa , tahu tak lagu terhangat di pasaran kru

me : haaaa 0_0 ? tahu

mama : cuba nyanyi sikit

me : *frowned* nyanyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ?

mama : ha'ah lahh , macam mana lagu dia ?

me : *in thinking , should i sing? okay , i don't sing but i gave some sort of the lyric* - jangan ketinggalan tawaran yang istimewa..

mama : ohhh macam tuu ehh *chuckles

me : *blush out , barely to laugh . why she want me to sing that so-terrifying song , so my head was million frowned .

mama : cuba nyanyi betul betul , panjang sikit ?

me : aaaaaaaa ? errrr , okay . jangan ketinggalan tawaran yang istimewa , kepuasan dijamin seratus peratus buatan malaysia , dapatkan segera sementara masih adaaa.... eh dahh dah .

mama : ohhh , kepuasan dijamin ? buatan malaysia ? hahahaha

you see ? what is exactly happened to mama huh ? is she mad or what ? i can't stop from laughing when i recall that moment . Yeahh , a lil bit shy burst out , it's first time i sing to mama and the song was so horrid --'

Seriously I Need Your Hugs

hm yeah , hug me please ? i don't care who you are , hug me please , i really need it now . Fact , no one will do that , i'm in wrong place to get any hug . I think i can heal this hard feeling with hugs . Uhhh , i don't really know what do i feel now , somehow i feel lone , somehow i feel sad , somehow i feel happy , somehow i feel peace , somehow i feel angry , somehow i feel.. hard . There're so much types of feeling burning in to my heart and i couldn't find the reasons of . Why i've been like this ? Why this so-i-don't-know-what suddenly appeared ? ohhhh , i can hear the rain outside , and now is 5 am . back , i guess its because of the people around me , basically today i'd some talking with all different type of people and its all gave me different type of feelings . Oh finally ! I found the reasons i'm looking for , and now i can solve it . Wait , can i solve it ? Observe me now . Recall , in the morning i'd chat with my handsome ex-senior and its make me cheers after all . Then , i greeted that handsome man named L :D well , i blurred when i'd chat with him cos we'd always lose the right things to talk about and it makes me blank plus bored . Next , some guys annoyed did approach me and it makes me felt annoyed , exactly . Hm in a moment , S greeted me and i was like 'oh hiyaaa' , i'd never expect he will greet me like now , thanks anyway , you cross out my thought as though you forgot about me already , but i'm completely wrong ! Still you make friends with me and i'm glad the things turn like this . At least , i've released my missing towards you andddddd i felt relieved on it .

Soooo , hm , still i need hugs , now i felt lonely . It's not me who lonely , but it's my mind , my mind keeps telling me it's lone from something fun , something precious , or something lovely , i couldn't think something lovely as none of lovely thingy happened --' oh noww , i feel i want some lovely touches from someone and still i don't care who you are , come to me and give your some lovely touches for me , will you ? whoaaaah , what's exactly happen to me now ? i'm mad ! i couldn't thinks and feels the right thing . Errr...enough , the things simply going more complicated and messed . Bye -_-

This Song Suit With My Situation :)

The little things, you do to me are

Taking me over, i wanna show ya

Everything inside of me

Like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating

My feet are stuck here, against the pavement

I wanna break free, i wanna make it

Closer to your eyes, get your attention

Before you pass me by

So back up back up take another chance

Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you

Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you

Give up give up don't you say that I'd be

Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin

If im better off better off, with out you boy

So don't just leave me hanging on

And every time, you notice me by

Holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things

I don't believe, that it could be

You speekin your mind and, sayin the real thing

My feet have broke free, and i am leavin

I'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but

I wont forget you, and i won't think this

Was just a waste of time

So back up back up take another chance

Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you

Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you

Give up give up don't you say that I'd be

Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin

If im better off better off, with out you boy

But don't just leave me hangin on

So Let it be , Just Let it be and LET IT BE

Hiya guysss , it's 3 am already but still my eyes tough to not to sleep . I could feel my neck ache as i'd held up my head for hours to use and look at my lappy .

So i'm at Shah Alam now , mama's house . Basically , i'm not so happy being right here as though i felt boring at all the times . It's more unfortunate when Fazana wasn't around , she's at her village for the time being and it makes me bored here . She'd came here , but for less than an hour . dammit -,- ! Fazana also want to stay here longer but her mother force her to back to village as they now had some family problems and it's really none of my business , so i just can't say anything , 'its okay fazanaaaa , see yaa next time , take care love yaaa' , and she was like 'alahhhhh , nak duduk sini , nak duduk sini , mama tak bagiiiii' , so i just can't say anything , again (:

There's one more unfortunate thing , i still haven't meet Nabb and i must admit that we can't meet this whole holidays as i'm kinda busy and so do her . I should met her yesterday but i have to take care of my brother as mama took them only on evening and all of a sudden i decided to follow them , so i'm here . And there's nothing i can do nor her . I hate been separated -.- the obstacles always stop us from being like before and you could see us now .

More , lately , i felt i'm blurred and blank to do anything such blogger-ing , myspace-ing , or ym-ing properly . I used to logged in all the stuffs but i couldn't do anything with them , wasted hours just for watching them but not did any . It's completely an odd troubles , it's troubles when i couldn't do anything with my blog , myspace and ym -.- and let me repeat it, an odd troubles ! I d k how to heal my problems , so let it be , it'll not bloody drive me crazy , just little actually .

I could feel the holidays makes me dirty , i d k why . The zits eagerly grew up on my face as the result of the lazy of me to ensure my skin cleaned . You know , it's worser when the holidays keep me to wake up in the morning very very late as there's no worries about school for me to chase out in the morning , isn't it ? and cause me to take a bath only in evening , is it nasty enough ? oh yes ! haha my lips always in unconditional which its dry and smelly . haha , that so-called dirty beside i didn't took any action for , just let it be (: yuckssss , hahah

The Holidays Ain't be as What I'd Plan So

GOSHHHHH ! Abah wants to take us to go to camping tomorrow where tomorrow i have my own plan , i wanna meet Nabb , dammit -.- I really miss her but i can't meet her tomorrow , i'll go camping for two days means will be home on Thursday indeed . I could feel tomorrow must be boring and boring -,- I want to stay home but i knew that Abah wouldn't allow me as he won't trust me to stay properly at home as though i'll hang around in nowhere , it might be . Well , it's fortunate because still i have Friday to meet her . You know , i'll drag her to Mid Valley and force her to watch Remember Me and absolutely not Alice in Wonderland :D Tihihi , she said that she want to watch that but i'll do anything to make her watch Remember Me movie (: And its my concern to tell her the story of Alice in Wonderland , come on , i'll not put any charges at all , it's bloody free and bloody come from my mouth :D hahaha

Oh noooo , Abah told me already to pack up my things for tomorrow but still nothing being packed . I'm lazy enough to do that ! I don't want to go to any heck camping tomorrow ! I wanna meet my best friend that i missed much . Goddd , HELP ME OUT !

Well , Congratulations !

Well , a big clap for Mr S as he now in the very happy living with his new GF (: oh yeah , new GF named Sarah , beautiful name indeed . He really did what i told him , you still remember right ? on my older post , i said , try to find another girl which much better than me , and he did it very very well then , CONGRATULATIONS :D ! Well well well , still i remember where he eagerly said that he don't interested in any of girls out there , obviously he just into me as if no more girls in this earth . I won't bloody blame him at all even little to relieve when he has new lady in his life . And I'm not bloody mind at all when the things turn like this , really :)

Nabb , the bestfriend of mine , still :D she home ! and oh we've a long talking otp last night , i told her everything . Everything happened when she's not around , and of course including the story of Mr S . Nabb oohed and aahed till she said , ' what ! ' . I was like , ' lehhhh , come on lah . Aku tak kisah langsung ah wehh , serious . ' laughing then . And she told me , she just think that S embarrassed himself . Why ? Because he eagerly acting that he just want me instead any else girls out there , but now , he turn out . I felt that Nabb was quiet true . But i don't and won't bloody care pun . Let it be . And what about this Thursday ? Is he going to phone me or not ? haha , i bet he won't as he has gf already babe ! Please remind that (:

better off better off , sleeping by myself and wondering

i'm better off better off , with out you boy

(colbie caillat - the little things)

The Last Thing Through My Mind , It'll Never Ever Through Again , This Is The Last , SWEAR !

I'm angry , i'm sad , i'm pissed off , pathetic . Why ? i'll tell yaa .

Yesterday , i've watched news on tv3 where Tuanku Mizal Zainal Abidin gave his speeches . I d k why suddenly i'm interested in such tv program , i sat properly on sofa and twisting the papers to make it turn to star , you know , the little stars which they puts in the bottle and use it for decorations , so that was i did . While the news was on the screen , suddenly i see my ex-father walked behind Tuanku Mizal Zainal Abidin with his very smart looking costume , obviously it's his job , and i knew it already as i'm not felt lil even shocked at all , but i'm angry ! All the little stars thrown up and the sofa messed with . I'm cursing him , i'm mad at him , yeahh he doesn't know at all as he's in the screen instead in front of me , means i'm the one who acting-super-angry but he's just acting-heavenly-happy , watta heck i'm doing -,- ! I was like 'aaaaaa ! papa jahat , papa jahat !' hahaha , dramatically -.- He cheated my mom . As we can see , man cannot be trust and we cannot trust any man , i don't really mind about that actually . However , i missed him , i missed kak Faten(his daughter , also my ex-step-sister) . I missed our time where we hang around together , laughed together and back to village together . Oh yeahh , i missed puding telur Opah . She always cooked it for me if i came to their house , it's my favorite and how lucky i am when someone as sweet as that old lady cooked me a favorite dessert in every time i came to . It's nice when we've our breakfast together , it's nice when kak Faten teased Irfan , it's nice when i shared my story with her , it's nice when we break the fast together , everything's nice , everything ! Till this horrid thingy happened , we lost our contact at all . And minutes ago , i'd sent something on kak faten's ym , i said that i miss her . Only now i have the strength to approach her as mama doesn't allow me to do that . Well , i did finally !

I'd read kak faten's blog , and she'll gone to Japan on next two weeks , i was like 'kakakkkk :( ' , i'm sad , but for what ? there's no bloody definite reasons to sad about this , it's very none of my business , it's her life not mine even i'm not in her life right now and will never ever again . and i'm never existed in her mind after all i guess . Well , fine then , i'll not thinking about these anymore , i'll just let my life move on unthinkingly these thingy again . I do have my own life . This is just memories , only memories , yeahhh . *sigh

kak Faten , i miss you no matter what .

Alice in Wonderland :D !

Hiyaaaaa (: ! I'm so happy today . I'd spent my day with my lovely aunts , we watched movie and yeahh , absolutely Alice in Wonderland as i put it on the title ! Well , the story was just okayy or not so bad . I could give them 3/5 stars . Slacked because i'd expected something more terrific than what i'd watched then , the story was too straight to the point , and the script such a bored anyway , not so funny . I love the cat , I love Alice , I love TweedleDee TweedleDum , I love White Queen and mostly I love Mad Hatter . Mad Hatter acted by Johnny Depp*my future bf haha* . He did it excellently as he shown the right expression on the screen as well . You know , i couldn't recognize him at all as the make up were really up-ing his face till he looked like so clown and his charming looking disappeared , i bet you'd seen the picture on the poster in everywhere . More , i think Alice shouldn't left her Wonderland , she should pity on Mad Hatter as he looked pathetic as if she gone . I think it worth to stay at Wonderland , everybody loves her . And she's the hero ! should be 'heroin' as she's a lady , hekk haha . The Cheshire Cat such a lazy one and looks scary also cute at the same time . He loves to twist , twist and twist again also invisible and emerged at all of sudden then , always make people shock ! The Tweedles also attracted . They're innocent and infantile , adorable and sweet , they mean well but are of little real help since they speak in weird rhythms and riddles . It's so cute when the Red Queen stick their foreheads with love signs , i began to laugh at that looking . Oh yeahh , I hate the Red Queen , i'm completely sure you guys will beside me as if you guys watched the story where the Red Queen own an oversized head even fiery temper and propensity to scream 'OVER THE HEAD!' 'OVER THE HEAD!' , i'm sick of heard that irritated about . She rules her subject through fear , means everybody followed her rules depended on her damn high temper , they dare to stick a fake such things onto their innocent body as to make just similarity of their damn BIG HEAD QUEEN , that's so idiot . However it is , i'd learned so many values of the story . We need to be brave at whenever or wherever we are and believe in yourself strongly . There's no impossible words in my life (:

THE END , XO

I'm Sick of Being Sick

Chooo ! Choo ! Ahh-choo! Guyss , i don't feeling well today , i got fever -.- ! duhh , i could feel my head heavy and my body weak :( my nose running all the times , i coughed so badly , there's so much sputum in my throat which makes me even felt bloody sick . I suppose to go to school today but yeahh , these heck thingy didn't gave me any chances to have fun .

It's worser because today at 3.30 pm i gotta hockey training , it's not training actually . We just play around and messed up boys team , haha . Idk if my dad allow me to join hockey or not today . He thought me to lay on the bed and wraps my body with the blankets at all the times until i'm recover , no way i do that . Today's hockey training might be more exciting as the 'ex-senior' in our school wanna join along today , ohhh i miss them :) Abahh , pleaseeeeeeeee , there'll be plenty of princes charming at the field , pleasee ? hahaha

errr , unlike yesterday where the boy players wasn't attracted at all , they all seemed the nerdy ones and got heck looking , haha sorry i'm rude :P oh yes , i had a training yesterday with the girls :) It's been a long time ain't hit the balls so i felt little awkward at the first , but still i can do it very very well , it was miracle , thanks God . and now , i can feel my waist , my arms and my hands a lil bit pain , somehow i love it , really .

Chill , It's Just One Week for Us , haha

haha yeah , one week aja lah awak :D hahaha

well , guys , i'd make an agreement with S , *wink wink hehe ;)

i decided to lost our contact in a week , why ? sahaja suka suka ! haha no , actually not for suka suka , i do have my own reasons of why i did that . First , he'd wasted his moneys a lot just because he phoned me , so this is the best way to prevent it as i don't want to top up my own and at time i felt uncomfortable with it . Second , i'd like to make some very-missing-feels in each other , i know i'm lil bit cruel to him either to me . Am i gonna miss him ? haha , i'm lying if i say no . Of course i will , everyday we'd chatbag(one of roald dahl's words that mean talks a lot) like there's no tomorrow , we wasted our 20minutes to 40 minutes just for talk , talk and talk . So i think its hard for me to not to miss him , i'm also a human which contain a heart and in my heart contain thousands of feelings and one of them is missing :) then Third , let he keep his moneys properly ;)

hey S , ps - take good care of yourself , try to find another girls which much better than me , eat much , try to sleep early in every night , andddd i'll miss your voices , your jokes , your some stupidity , our wars haha , hm the way you flirt me , and the way you praised me , i'll miss all of that , really :) and yeahhh , thanks for every single things you'd done for me . See you soon on next thursday as if you want so . Fulfill your precious time with precious things , byebye :)

It's Hilarious to See My Little Fellows

Haha see ? That's Atus , Aleen and Meeee ;D It's yesterday , 5th march 2010 , exactly . It's the day where we were skip our school and have SO FUN i guess :) There're so much things we did yesterday such as laugh , laugh , laugh , laugh and laugh , haha that's 'so much' ! Well , we'd plan to finish our homeworks , studying for the soon exam but all seems not worked , at all , haha . Everybody had been very talkative yesterday i guess , there're many stories we opened and every single stories would make us laughed histerically . Atus the one who'll bring up something fool and nuts which make us burst into laugh till our stomach would ache . Aleen is the best conversationalist , she would gave responds in every single things we talked about . And I ? haha , I'll just oohed and aahed also silent at time , but when i turn to laugh , it's their turn to be silent then -.-'' I was like 'ohh , okay korang , aku jelah yang gelak eh' hahaha , watta heck ! More over , we were struggling to design Aleen's myspace profile , it took hours to complete that simplest thingy , really , just because we fought to choose the layouts and panda's photos . She want that , i said no , it's not the best . And then , i chose that , she said no , still there're more better than that . Repeat , repeat and repeat till her profile completely done . Huhhhhh -.- ! hahaha

At 5.30 pm , I said 'okay guyssss , enough for today , i'm going home now' . And they , 'Alaaaaaa' . hahaha . So , they'd accompany me to the bus stand and i was home :) tired but fun . Abah was home quite late(7pm) , Mama also late(10pm) , Irfan also late(6.45pm) , Adik Abang also late(7.30pm) . So my house got little peace and i fall asleep -_- i shouldn't as Abah doesn't like it when i sleep during dusk . But somehow , i felt pretty tired yesterday . Okay that's all :)

Compare Your Body With Megan Fox's

Hahaha yeah , Atus the one who talked like that , she said 'nana , imagine that you're naked together with Megan and compare your body with her' i was like , is she nuts or what ! haha , she began to talk shit like that as i was so uncontrolled my desires to eat , eat , eat and eat -.-' i won't blame her even she makes me think twice before i eat , and i thank you for that as i now started to learn to be not so eat much as before . You know , i looked fat now , not really but going to . i must be careful in my appearances for the sake of self-confident in my life . Guys , hello , what will you be if you're very fat and ugly ? NO offense please . I bet the fat one will be much losing in their self-confident , am i right guys ? They'll have problems in dressing up , problems in wearing clothes and problems with seeing who owns the very fit and shape bodies , trust me . However , my own wasn't that so bad i guess , still there's people got jealous on me , they said my body's delicious as what man looking for . haha really ? i d k . And i need to appreciate my own self , i must to take good care of my precious body and looking , i realize it's important , really :)

Okay my dear fellows , i got some issues here . Mannnn , i'd mention about him for many times here . S again :P So far , he is nice one , yeah i guess . Thank God he wasn't force me in feelings matter , a little to relieve then . I was thinking crazy in this matter as i was needn't be like that actually as it wasn't big problems at all , idk why i have been like that . However , now everything seems so clear and our relation going smooth :) Frankly , i really scared if one day i start to keep some feeling to him , oh please , i try my best to not to be like that , despaired in such relation , it's me .

Completely Freak Out -.-

He's absolutely fucking insane ! Huhhh , sigh hardly , i was pretty tired today as i ran away to hide myself from that mad thingy . Let's call him as HL , he's new student in my school and somehow i knew him the day before he entered my school . I was okay at first , totally fine instead glad he's became smk pu 1's student . But TODAY ! The very unexpected happened , omg it was like a fool thing he done . We've been friends in cyber-world about a month i guess , and everything was seems so fine . I decide to never show myself in real time , i'd always pretended like i was nobody in front of him as he can't recognize me at all as i wear 'tudung' at school . He's searching me vigorously , Syikin one of the victim in this case where at lunch time today with unexpected at all had asking me with saying vigorously my full name , to make sure as if i am the bloody own that pretty name .

Syikin : Nana ! Nama awak Siti Nur Diyana Binti Zulkifly kan ? kan kan ?

Me : Errrr , ha'a . Kenapa ? *mana pula dia tahu nama penuh ni

Syikin : Ni , HL nak jumpa awak , sekarang juga . *pulling my hand and seems to lead me to that guy .

Me : Wehhhh , taknak ! taknak ah !!!

Syikin : Kenapa ? Dia dah lama cari awak , dia nak jumpa sangat .

Me :OMG ! Please syikin , ckp kat dia kita taknak , or ckp aja awak tak jumpa kita pun , susah nak cari , pleaseeeeee , im begging , please wehhhh !

Syikin : Tapi kenapa ? Dia nak jumpa sekejap aja .

Me : Nooooo , taknak taknak taknak ! *felt so scared

And i ran away from her , go get the rest of my friends , and screamed 'korangggggggggg , tolong aku!' They're just 'watta hell happened to this biatch' And i open the story , several of them was laughing and several was like 'gilalaaaaaaahhhh!' , you got that right fellows . Minutes after , i saw HL walked on to my place , and obviously looking for someone , that's me ! A little panic did burst me out where i swiftly hiding myself in dressing room , and barely he caught me , phew , pretty relief . My friends outside was covering me as they'd cooperation each other to safe me from that so monster , hahaha :D 'diam Nana , diam weh . Belum lagi . Kau duduk diam diam .' It was hilarious to see them in this situation , never mind hows my situation then , very mad -.- I bet yaa all wondering much why i was so that bad to hide myself from him ? Oooh I just not ready yet to meet him , as i always set my mind off of never repeat the past time which ending of the relation was so fucking sad , the similar things you know . I know that he'll keep looking me if i stay still like this and completely will be pretty much complicated for the soon's coming . Anyway , i'm sorry HL , i just pretty not ready yet to meet you , one day i guess . And you should know how to be a cool man , no need pressed me out just because you wanna see me , its was so bad mannnnn . You're just like rapists , sorry to say bad . Bluntly , my mouth was cursing you none-stop before and im sorry , again .

Felt little dizzy -.-