Wasn't That Great

Basically, now i'm at village, and tomorrow, i'll be on leave. It's an effing tired today, i slept at 3am but woke up at 8am -,- And then had rush to pack all the things and mama kept nagging me to do this and that with my less energy, it was a bad morning. Went to KLIA and waited for atuk nenek for almost 2 hours there, we didn't sit, we was just stand and wait. And with my high heels, those girls who'd ever wear high heels should know how pain it is when they're in my condition, stand for 2 hours with high heels! Allahhh, my back was really painful. After atuk nenek reached, atuk hugged me tightly, he was like "NANAAAAAAAA!" hehe so i shaped smile and hugged him too. I helped them carrying luggages into the car, yes at first was using trolleys, but then, of course, we can't put the trolley into the car! lol -.- surely we had to take all the luggages ourselves and moved into the car, and at that moment, i carried a totally heavy stuffs till i can feel the painful on my arms and shoulders. Then, headed to village, was sitting in the car for hours with a hot condition -,- Air conditional was okay, but the sun was really anger! Ahhhhh :( And just now, i just finished from washing all the dishes as kenduri held tonight and i washed thousand of plates! and tadi i have to cangkung lama gilaaa, ahhh. Could you imagine how i'm feeling now? And with my problems, with my sadness, today wasn't great, today was bad exceptttt hihi, took a lot of pictures using my uncle's Canon dslr, dude! It is an awesome gadget! But literally yeah, i don't have it yet :p And and, i was happy too, cause mama bought me a lot of Blackforest Cadbury Chocolate muah muah! haha. But still yeah, i'm thinking about my problem, i want we to be good again, i miss our time. Ahh, i'm so sad, kbai :(

Just Let It Be

Kay, now rasa nak demam, i don't know, too stress? too tension? I don't know, but i can feel it, guess it might be even worst tomorrow, but i will just let it happen, i don't wanna take meds, let it be, with this bad feelings, it's suit, a package for me. Yeahhhh :'/

The Courageous

People, i'm gonna do something that's out of my mind, i wish for the best, i will pray for the best and i will also do the best :) Please, pray for me a luck, i hope this decision, this courageous will make a good ending. Ya Allahhhhhhh, please Ya Allahhh

Let's Flyyyyyyyyy, Up Up Here We Go Go!

Ahhhhhh, i can't get enough with the song, i play it out loud! It's totally awesome, sang by Rachael Lampa, she got a talent, of course lah haha. Hihi, right now, i'm get ready to go out with Mama, gonna have breakfast and fetch up my little brothers at Puchong. Eee know what? I got an obvious scar on my chin, -.- brrrrr! Hate it, kay, i need to set up my hair properly now, hihi chowww. Here we gooooo, come with meeee, there's a world out there that we should seeee! Take my handddd! Close your eyessss, lalala hihi ;p

Please, Forgive Me

I've made a silly mistake just now, the guilty is haunting me now :/ I didn't mean to, i was just too anxious and i'm way too wary, i just don't want the same things happen again. It was enough, being hurts. I think, this is it, love. I could feel it now. I really am. Love? Fighting, arguing, and then reconcile, found differences. But still choose to be with each other. I hope this is real, and i believe too, this is real, this is the real of love. And at least, i've learned something today, i've learned something :) Because of this, i think somehow that i'm a lil stupid haha but no, it's actually because it takes time to trust each other, to get to know each other, we need times, yes, we need times indeed. God, i accused him badly :/ Please, forgive me.

Well, today, i was on leave, i didn't go to school, i stayed at home, woke up at 1 something pm haha. And had my day with just a normal things. But still, it was great. I did nothing, but was relaxing. It was fun, having a fresh and hot tea by my own self. And then, sitting all alone at the outside of my house, oh, listen to songs and my hair touched by a soothed wind. Hmmm, it was a good moment (: That's all for now, bye

Hurrahhhhh!

Being at home is the best thing ever! :) hihi, hey pals, i'm home, i'm home! Godddddd, it's totally great when i can lay on my 'own' bed, doing nothing in my room, play musics out loud! It's heaven! Home sweet home ;) Hihi, but on Sunday, i'm going back to my village to see Atuk and Nenek come back from Makkah. And Monday, i will be on leave, again! Yeayy but not yeay when i think about my study, i might miss the important things that i should learn for any subjects on that day :/ But what can i do? Atuk really want to see all of us, i mean, all his children and grandchildren.

I spent my time in this room, in this house, wise enough i guess. Just so you know, when i stepped into this very awesome house, i felt so great! I felt like "shalalala, this is my worlddddd! ooooyeahh!" hahaha, and just stayed at downstairs, was doing nothing but was laying on the cushion and then fall asleep. When i awoke, went upstairs, bathed, and bum! on my bed ;) Reading a great novel - NUMB3RS, and opened the musics out loud! I love my life, i love myself. There's nothing could makes me feelin' bad anymore, imma strong person now, i don't really care about you and you and you, i cares myself ;) night, xoxo

A Confession

I am tired being her, i mean, Deana Zeeway. But i love her, what can i do? :/

Today, Tomorrow, Next and Next

Today, i bought some books which are all the SPM past year questions, but still i didn't found Mathematics', History's and Chemistry's -.- I feel totally not satisfied with it, i should have all but i don't know whyyyy, i think MPH now lack of stock as pen pun tak ada, but luckily there's another stationary store, Marwilis at PKNS. Yeah still there's no the SPM past year books. I'm tired but totally HAPPY, kay enough.

Tomorrowwww :( It's time up! I'm gonna say bye bye to my room, my house, which is the most hard things. I don't even packing my stuff yet, tomorrow i'll be back to the hell aka hostel, gah hate it! I just wanna be at homeeeeeeeeee :'( isk, home sweet home, always sweet home, haaaaahhh emo nya -,- haha but no matter what, when i get back there, i wanna focus on my study thingy, i'm gonna work hard for it, and i believe, i'm gonna have an excellent result! YEAH! Go Diyana Go! kay, i needed rest now actually, and Irfan keep grrrrr, i'm gonna bite him -.- kbai.

*i says a lot of - i'm gonna, i'm gonna, i'm gonna HAHA :b

Unforgottable

Saeidatul Isyaaq, i met her today :D! Today was totally awesome and incredible, i guess ;) A million thanks to mama bcs she allowed me go out today. Well, a lot of precious moments happened and i won't forget it.

Okay i reached Sunway at around 12pm and then i chose main entrance to meet Saei, so then we had fun! Since both of us didn't have even a bite yet, we decided to have our meal first and i chose McD, but then, the court was totally crowded and i didn't think there's an empty place for us. So then Saei asked me to have Wendy's since i have never been there :) Andddddd yach! When we was on our way, i spotted someone :) My very precious someone. We stared each other but we gone for our own ways. So, i had my meal with out of focus as my eyes keep searching for that precious someone but i can't found that. So i was just went on my day with Saei (:

Next, Forever 21. Saei wanna buy a plain top but then we were like wanna buy everything there, shooo that's girls kan :D haha. And i can't forget how arrogant and offensive staffs were there. I still remember, i was waiting for Saei to try out the clothe at fitting room, and the staff wasn't politely said to me "masuk lah, tak boleh dua orang one room" With her face like so menyakitkan hati! I was just silent and went in but my God! Eee, i wasn't planning pun nak masuk sampai dua orang one room, and even tak terfikir langsung nak buat mcm tu! Pfffftt -,- I wish Forever 21's manager would read this and he/she will do something to make the services better. Okay let them be.

And afterall we visited some other stores and then, we headed to Starbucks Coffee. It was a moment when both of us starting to lose our mood. And when we reached Starbucks, i then felt like don't wanna buy anything -,- I think, i was still full and i was out of mood, Saei too. Then i cancelled which made Saei kinda pissed off of me hihi sorry Saei and we chose to sit in a quiet place and we was just kept silence and layan fikiran masing masing. Oh! Before this, something was happen, and that's why i was out of mood! Soooo, we sat and silent. After few minutes, Saei hugged me and i was like "hmmm :)" Something miracle happened for her but not for me yet, but still i was happy for her though. We wished the same and we thought the same, but Saei got it first and i kept waiting for my miracle haha (: We waited, we waited and we waited, but there's nothing happen, so we decided to go to wash room.

Afterall, Saei felt like wanna have something to chew up, and we headed to.. i forgot apa nama makanan tu haha, and i saw my precious someone and i thought my miracle won't be happened at all, but it was totally happened. So, it was fair! Saei happy, and i was too :D! Saei, my precious someone and i, three of us headed back to Starbucks and it then was left only Saei and I. Hmmmmmm, it was the sweetest and precious moment i have ever had in my life, really.

Saei bought chocolate cream coffee, eh? Haaa, and i bought hazelnut cream coffee which was totally yummies and it's my favourite (: So we chilled until it's 5pm something, then my mom called and we moved. OH wait! Something awful was happened, it was an awkward moment we had seen. It was made by the Starbucks' supervisor i guess. A chinese lady, i think she's a personality tv, i think she's an actress but since i'm a Malay, i don't really know bout her but swear that i have ever seen her acting. Okay, on that really moment, she was smoking and right beside her, an old man which was her friend kot. Suddenly, the supervisor, i'd mention above said something like "eee, perempuan smoking, tak cool lah! Tak ada class.(he's actually gossiping but he said it out loud! And he talked to his lower staff, i guess) Ni apa lantai bersepah dgn rokok ni, teruknyaaa, sapu sekarang" And! The chinese lady, slackly stared at him but he was acted like nothing happen -,- Saei and i was just glanced and we silent. And the old man, looked at me, and he laughed, and i too, what can i do kan? Gelak jugalah, hahahhaha. I said "chill lahhh, haihh he's too straight! haha" and the lady shaped smile haha, what an awkward!

Kay then, Saei and i moved, and we separated. (: dah, kbye haha

Woo-Yeayh

hihi, mama bagi pergi esok. Fellas, can't wait to see ya!

My Wish Will Come True

Shoo-bee-doo-bee-doo! Hell, my eyes is awful now. Goddddddddd, it's been three days i'm crying! When will can i smile again? :( ah.

I really wanna go out tomorrow, but mama kinda like, idk what's wrong with her :( I have informed her earlier that i wanna go out on WED! I want! Gahhhhhhhhhh :( This is why i'm crying, a lot. Lately mama always not in mood, but somehow she, i d k :( I'm just sad, i'm totally sad with her, dah bye

Sakit Hati Gilalah!

RIGHT NOW, I'M CURSING FACEBOOK! 

Fuck This Shit, I'm Going to Narnia!

I hurts much lately, i cried much lately. When will i be happy again? I feel like wanna just runaway from everyoneee. This is it, what's not to life? There's always the ups and downs, and now i'm at down. On Sunday, i was sad but when it was night, i cheered back! As you can see, my post down here Okay, now i'm happy! My sadness was just for temporary bla bla bla, kay. And i should say, my happiness too, was just for temporary :/ What a life.. okay now i'm crying, gah! Enough! Nowadays, i have spends a lot of my times by sitting alone in a dark state, just do nothing, listens to some pathetic rhythm of songs, watches the stars and moon and of course, cried, teared.

i wish this sadness will be killed, i want to go to Narnia where the magic will happens and maybe Hogwards school? Kbye.

Monday is a Week Starter

Good morning haha, yeah, i expected this already, woke up late? :P yeah, definitely as i slept at 5 something am. But something made me startled! I went out from my room, i went downstairs and i saw mama, i was like "uh? mama tak kerja ke?" and she said like "kalau mama kerja siapa yang nak masak, rumah siapa nak kemas" okay now i get it. I felt haaaa, don't know how to describe it in words, but i was just remain silent. I felt guilty! I'm sorry mama, but you must know, i really can do all that chores thingy when you're not around, just like the holiday before, i did it all, it's just i'll do it after my so late woke up, i'm sorry

Oh I Realized Now that I am Actually a Strong Girl, pasha! haha

Okay, now i'm happy! My sadness was just for temporary haha ;) whoo-yeahhhh! Hey world, i'm back! mwahs!

haha, i love the words

BOYSBOYSBOYS

HAHA, i just love the words, peace-yo!

I'm so broken heart

How to Overcome the Anxiety?

No i don't know what is up with me, err but actually i know, but i want to deny it. Hmmhhhhh :'/ okay enough nana, LET IT BE.

I tell you what, tomorrow i need to wake up at earlier in the morning at perhaps around 5am because i'm heading to KLIA tomorrow as my grandparents going to Umrah in Makkah ;] I bet it would be hilarious. It's been to long since i met my relatives. So i can't wait, and i need to prepare for everything such as burn an effing hell soothing songs into CD so that i can listen to the songs while we're heading to the place, recharge hp, recharge camera, update more songs into my phone and and find the suit clothes, wahhhh that's a bunch of lists to do! But still it's obvious that i'm linger to make it all done, apalah Deana ni -,-

Oh, spoke my name "Deana", i've got an issue here haha -,- Okay, i was changed my display name in fb to be Daniel Zeeway HAHAHA --' I have no motive. It was just totally a joke! It started when Saei and i discussing about something and its somehow relates to women matter and then i realized that being a women is fucking hard! I said to Saei like "mcm ni aku nak jd lelaki lah, tukar nama aku jd Daniel haha" and then she was like "tukarlah kalau kau berani" haha it was a challenge and i would like to do it and i did! And somehow friend of mine, Syafiq -.- He guessed that Daniel is my boyfriend, and i laughed till my heart out of my body --' Haihhh, Syafekkk Syafekkkk -.- Okay that's all hahaha AND, dah tukar balik Deana Zeeway dah hihi ;)

I Heart Justin Bieber

It's confusing whether i should like it or not when Justin with Selena  
    -__________-' but i have read this ;

Can we trust it?

Too Short

Okay i don't know how to start this, hmmm

I'm getting sick with men.